5:01PM - ~/\/othing just writing for the hell of it

i havent written in this thing for a long time so i figrued id write something in it. yea schools been goin for 3 weeks now (i think) & its goin good, schools schools. freshmen are bein freshmen, immature & ignorant, but all freshmen act the same way. but yea not much has happened so far this year. well school jst started so i guess not much will happen til like late september or w/e. but yea im gonna go i still got more homework to finish up....

YAY

Current mood: blank

Current music: Trick Daddy - Sugar

6:05PM - ?¿

i really miss poultney so much!! i wanna go back. all i could think of the day after i got home was i wanna go back....NOW!! i jst miss everyone there & doin the things we did there. jst everything a/b it i miss....but ill be back there in no time flat. but yea thats all i really wanted to say. LATA BITCHES!!

Current mood: depressed

Current music: PussyCat Dolls - Dontcha

8:05AM - summer '05

well this summer is slowly but surely coming to an end. my summer in vermont ended & im sad cuz i miss everyone there. this summer kicked ass though. i had so much fun!! theres really not a lot to do in vermont, but we always managed to find something to do. like on the hot days me, alex, kassey, & kelsey would all go tanning in my grandma's backyard & then if we got too hot we would walk dwn to the river jst a few feet from where we were tanning. parker's 4th of july party was interesting. everyone there was jst a/b drunk off their ass (except for a few). the parade & then the fire works on the 4th of july @ the elementary school are always fun to watch. but the day before the 4th of july me, alex, kevin & hector were all @ alex's house jst hanginout & drinkin & what not. & i only had 2 twisted tea's & alex made me this drink, it was V8 splash & 3 shots of Captain Morgan....IT WAS GOOD!! & then another time me, alex, my aunt leslie, kassey, & kelsey all went to the Great Escape this year & i went on every ride but 3. 1 of the rides we didnt go on b/c it broke dwn while people were on it & we didnt wanna go on it after that & 2 of the rides i didnt go on b/c if i went on 'em i wouldda been sick. it seems to me that every time me, alex & kayla get together somethings gonna happen. on 6/14 something CRAZY happened. poor alex. the 1st thing she told me & kayla, after it happened, was GET OUT & RUN!! poor poor alex. she was scared shitless! then me, alex, kassey, & kelsey have our tradtion of dressing up jst for the hell of it. this year our theme was rich people. the other 2 years it was barbies & million dollar whores. dont ask we have fun doin it b/c we're jst bein stupid & havin fun!! then every night for like the 1st month & a half, while i was there, me & alex would go out on the back roof & "star gaze" either that or we would go for a "walk" around the block, but really we didnt instead of walkin around the block we walked to the back shed. we got a lil collection from doin what we did when we went "star gazin" or for a "walk" around the block. we had quite the collection of the end of cigarettes. so much happened this summer. its hard to remember EVERYTHING. but the 1 day i somewhat remember the most was when alex was @ her cheering carwash & i was w/kyle & pete. we went for a lil drive on the back roads. & after that i dont remember much. i was too high to remember. speakin of kyle is graduation party was fun! but yea thats a/b my whole summer there for ya to read a/b. im still workin on the pictures from this summer too. but yea. im gonna go now....LATA BITCHES!!





ps- i miss EVERYONE in poultney!! cant wait til next year!!

Current mood: depressed

Current music: 50 Cent - Just A Lil Bit

11:37AM - FINALLY!!

well today is finally the offical day of SUMMER '05!! ive been waitin for this since back in august when school started!! but yea. im goin to vermont this year but i guess like i said in the last entry im havin some doubts about it. but yea no need to get all depressed & worried over that....i should be happy that SCHOOL IS FINALLY OVER :-D!! well im out!! LATA BITCHES

Current mood: ecstatic

Current music: Dolly Parton - I Will Always Love You

8:24PM - bored

well my family's here today & ive been bored cuz theres nothin to do here. im kinda havin 2nd thoughs on goin to vermont this summer. cuz i mean i dont wanna be left out or left alone. but if that starts to happen i guess ill jst come home. i mean if i wanted to sit on my ass all day & do nothin id stay here, but i figured id go see all my friends....but the 4th of july is so far away from now. & my cousin dont get outta school til next month (june) and im gonna be up there the rest of this month sittin on my ass all day doin nuttin but sittin @ my grandmas house starin @ each other. well yea i guess im gonna go. im waitin on katie to get home cuz i gotta talk to her bout somethin....LATA BITCHES!!

Current mood: confused

Current music: Joe Nichols - What's A Guy Gotta Do

10:37PM - someone to talk to

right now i really need someone to talk to....cuz im goin thru somethings that only a couple of my friends kno a/b & understand. well the other night i tried to talk to 1 of my friends a/b this thing im goin thru & she didnt wanna listen & i REALLY need someone to talk to & i really dont wanna talk to my mama cuz shes jst gonna say "i told ya so". but yea thats a/b all i hafta say for now....LATA BITCHES!!

Current mood: crushed

9:43PM - something to get off my mind

ok this is so random but i got somethin to get off my mind. ok i was in the car on the way to school the other mornin & i started thinkin bout peoples pictures on their profile thingys & in some of the pictures the people have accessories & clothin on thats "in". i dont see why people hafta be followers. why cant people jst be trend setters? i mean it makes no sense....everytime a new fad comes out next thing u kno everyones followin it. if we're all supposed to be different in our own way then why in the world is everyone goin out & buyin stuff to look like everyone else. no matter if its different colors its still the same thing & ur still gonna look like everyone else....well yea ive said all i hafta say for now & sorry i havent really been writin in here, but oh well....LATA BITCHES!!




ps - 7 MORE DAYS TIL SUMMER!!

Current mood: confused

Current music: Lonestar - I'm Already There

10:57PM - happiness

YAHOOOOOOO....SCOTT FINALLY GOT VOTED AMERICAN IDOL!! THANK U JESUS!! yes i am VERY happy that Scott got voted off....i mean he was jst really startin to aggrvate me, but what made me REALLY mad was last week when Constantine got voted off when he didnt deserve to go....Scott's performance last week was TERRIBLE & Costantine's was good, but yet somehow Constantine left & Scott stayed? does that seem fair? well i guess Scott's fans musta really kicked in & called....but it didnt help him this week cuz he got VOTED OFF HAHA!! iight well im gonna go cuz Diagnosis Murder is coming on....LATA BITCHES!!

Current mood: ecstatic

Current music: Los Loney Boys - Heaven (Constantine's last song :( )

9:10PM - randomness

last weekend i finally found 2 people that i feel i fit in with. i mean dont get me wrong its not that i dont like hanging-out w/my other friends its jst i feel like they dont want me around & if im around someone & i feel that they dont want me around then why should i stick around? EXACTLY!! theres ABSOLUTELY NO POINT!! but thats basically all i hafta say for now so im jst gonna go....LATA BITCHES!!

Current mood: grateful

Current music: Jo Dee Messina - My Give A Damn

8:35PM

ok today i was EXTREMELY annoyed/pissed w/e the fuck u wanna call it i was. everyone is jst so aggrvatin. like everyone keeps throwin shit & me, & hititn me, & puttin their hands in my face (which i really hate) & i jst found out like a couple minutes ago that someone fuckin stole my lighter outta my purse (b/c 1st of all mines wasnt see thru green & this 1 is see thru green & 2nd of all my lighter wasnt a piece of shit, it actually worked right) & im startin to think it was either william or david. i think it was david b/c today in 4th block i walked by him & i heard him talkin a/b lighters & my purse was near him & then i think it was william b/c he was pissed & me b/c i was gettin an attitude w/him durin 2nd block. thats why i cant stand u fuckin ppl nomore. i want outta this state. i wanna start a NEW life, in a NEW state where absolutely NOONE knows who the fuck i am & i can be anyone i wanna be w/o all these bitches dwn here havin somethin to say a/b me. so thats all i gotta say for now....LATA BITCHES!!

Current mood: pissed the fuck off

Current music: Dem Franchise Boyz - White Tee

4:08PM - changes

ya know it jst hit me today. noones who they used to be last semester. times change & people change. my mom & i were talkin bout how come i dont hang-out w/ppl i used to hang-out with like: katie, brittany r, margaret, jessika, erica, & ppl that used to be @ nicks. & to be honest i couldnt come up w/an answer. i jst wish everything was back to normal. like everything was last semester. everyone was happy & in a big group & whatnot. now everyones still together cept for me. u kno every weekend i sit on my ass & clean & play on the computer & watch tv. thats basically all i do. ive tried to do stuff w/some of the ppl i used to hangout w/but everytime i ask them, theyre a/b to go somewhere, or theyre w/someone, or theyre w/someone goin somewhere. ya kno all i need is a change of states. thats why ive changed my mind for this summer. im decided that instead of stayin here i might go up to vermont. im actually still deciding. but yea anywho i gtg. PEACE YALL!!

Current mood: calm

Current music: Dem Franchise Boyz - Black Tee

3:53PM - ugh....

i am so sick & tired of ppl always complainin bout stuff i have or stuff i do. its none of there god damn business what i do or what i have. if they think its a problem to keep makin up sns then oh fuckin well if i think theyre cute im not about to pass up an opportunity for a cute sn. i mean GROW up in ur what? fuckin 10th grade & all u have to do with ur time is complain a/b me havin to many sns. GROW UP PEOPLE!! god damn!! thats why im so sick of this state & the people in it. i jst dont give a rats ass a/b ANYTHING, ANYMORE!! so to all u complainers FUCK U!! thats pathetic if u have enough time on ur hands to worry a/b something i have or im doing. grow up & get the FUCK outta my god damn business. but i dont have the time of day to worry a/b all u complainers. i jst had to get that off my chest

Current mood: pissed off

Current music: Dem Franchise Boyz - Pink Tee

4:49PM - blah

today started out all good i was in a happy mood & then sometime around lunch i started gettin really annoyed by people. & by 4th block i was to the point where i jst wanted to slap someone, cuss someone out, or jst scream. right now i have a lot of bottled up emotions and i need to get them out. well today when i got home i started to do my homework after i got my snack then my mom decides to come out & get something from the kitchen (normally i do my homework w/the tv on) & my mom on her way back in to work she cuts the tv off & begged her to turn it back on then i started gettin really pissed so i told her to jst go ahead & go back to work & to jst leave me alone so next thing i kno shes all up in my face talkin bout dont talk to me that way & then she has the nerve to fuckin slap on my face....TWICE!! so i told her that i was gonna call child abuse so she said go ahead. im waitin on her to hit me one more good time before i call child abuse. im not 3 she doesnt need to be all up in my face & she deffinately doesnt need to me hittin me....even if i do deserve it. but next time she hits me im gettin the phone & callin child abuse. im still pissed but i gotta finish my homework but when i do ill get back & write in here....PEACE YALL!!

Current mood: pissed off

Current music: Eminem - Like Toy Soldiers

3:40PM - happiness

well today we got interims & im very pleased with mine. i only failed 1 class & i got 2 b's & 1 a!! IM SO HAPPY!! i think i might even be gettin a celebration dinner for this :-D!! well i gotsta go cuz im goin SHOPPING!! PEACE YALL!!

Current mood: ecstatic

Current music: Rascal Flatts - The Broken Road

4:35PM - nothin

well today has offically started HSAP testing. everyone dreads the HSAP, but really the only 2 good things that come outta takin this test....1 u have NO homework & 2 u only have 2 classes a day. the whole bad thing is sittin down & bein quite for like 2 hours or w/e it is. thats impossible for some ppl. but yea. well im REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY tired from this weekend & yesterday so im gonna take my tired ass to bed....GOOD NIGHT WORLD :-D!!

Current mood: tired

Current music: Lonestar - Mr. Mom

5:16PM - bored

haylo peoples!! im bored outta my ever lovin mind so i thought id write somethin in here seein how i dont write much anymore. but yea. i dont really have much to say right now. but yea. anywho i gtg somewhere wit my mom now so im gonna go. PEACE YALL!!

Current mood: bored

Current music: Dem Franchise Boyz - Pink Tee

5:41PM - depressed

well desiree was supposed to come over but she cant cuz....well thats none of ur biz. why she couldnt come ova. man my weekends gonna suck now. ive been waitin for today ALL week cuz i knew desiree was gonna be comin over. but she cant. god damnit!! why does this always fuckin happened to me. well im gonna go cuz i have nothing else to say in this god damn journal thing

Current mood: depressed

Current music: Crossfade - Cold

4:48PM - aggrvated

honestly im tired of some of my friends cuz they gettin on muh last nerve. i mean it seems like we're always competin....AGAINST WHAT? exactly we dont have a reason to compete against each other so ive quit its jst this 1 particular friend WONT quit & its gettin on muh last got damn nerve. but yea. i still havent gotten ahold of desiree so ill probably end up callin her tonight or w/e. but yea. well im bored & i dont really feel like talkin to ppl on AIM so ill jst write in my journal then wait paitently til my mom gets off work in a couple minutes. theres not much to say so im gonna go....PEACE YALL!!

Current mood: annoyed

Current music: Frankie J ft. Baby Bash - Obsession

4:20PM - stuff

right now im jst gettin fed up & annoyed with people & all i really want is people to jst LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE!! well yea anywho. desirees comin over this weekend (i think) i havent talked to her in awhile so idk if she still is or not. well i guess ill call her tonight or w/e cuz i need to find out. well theres only 28 days left in this school year. & next week we gotta take the god damn HSAP thing-ma-bob that takes up half the day when ppl can be sleepin in class. but yea anywho. well if ull excuse me i gotsta call desiree to find out. PEACE YALL!!

Current mood: annoyed

Current music: Tim McGraw - Back When

4:41PM - natta

well today i spent most of my day helpin my dad out in the backyard. doin stuff with the flowers & whatnot. & then i came in & watched a movie with my mom, which we dont do often. then i got up & helped my mom make some sweet tea for dinner & whatnot. & thats been pretty much my whole day. i cant wait til next weekend cuz my "sista" desiree is comin over friday & stn til sat. & we're gonna be bad girls & do illegal junk. lol. but yea yall dont need to know that. well i guess ill write lata....if i got more to say or w/e....PEACE YALL!!

Current mood: dirty

Current music: Kenny Chesney - There Goes My Life